My Clean Slate

Duration: 15 minutes

Media: Photoshop CS2

Inspiration: -

Do you always get the nagging feeling at the back of your head that things could be better, that things shouldn't be this screwed up? And no matter how much you try to be optimistic, but on a smile in hopes that you will forget them -your heart twists and reminds you, hey, life sucks. 

You know, with all these 'growing up' and studying that we are currently busy with -I feel so conflicted. I'm literally on the road before the cross roads. After SPM, I will have to make a choice. Art/music, or Law/Medicine. On one point, I love art and music like one loves their own flesh and blood. It's my outlet. I'm not the type to be confined to four walls and a book. I need paper, I need paint, I need freedom.

Another, Law/Medicine guarantees assurance like art and music never can. The sensible side of me, is telling me, this is my career I'm choosing -not my hobby.  A career that will provide for me, and if possible my parents and the rest of my family. 

Fate and luck and heart screams for art and music. And mind, practicality and current predicaments calls for Law/Medicine. So I guess you can see my oh-so typical conflict, no?

I wanted to quit. Give in, you know. Try to forget art and music and well, move on. If I forget, it won't hurt that much. But it did. :/ A bit too much to put in words.

But one thing art and music has thought me, choices are never limited to one. And I should never ever quit. I was never born a quitter, and I'm not about to start. I'm going to make this choice count and no regrets -whichever I make. I'm going to make a living, and have art and music in my life. So this is me, restarting -stronger than ever, and I should be turning ashes into flames. :]